The CD changer is broken in my car, so I’ve been listening to a lot of radio stations lately. Taylor Swift’s Fearless came on the other day and got me thinking how much that song embodies the teen experience (in my mind at least).
As a teenager, I was fearless. I drove my car like that proverbial bat escaping the maw of hell. I took risks and called them adventures. I trusted strangers (especially boys) too much and expected to always escape unscathed. I don’t think I changed until I had my first kid at 26, to tell you the truth. (There’s a reason that Steve’s grandfather gifted me a book called How to Die in the Outdoors when I first knew him. He was terrified field work would make Steve a widower before 30.)
But I was emotionally insecure in a lot of ways. I didn’t trust my inner self, even if I trusted my outer body.
My characters are a lot like that, especially my new one, Jedda Hitler. She is trained as an assassin, whether she wants to be one or not. Yet inside, like most teens, she fears where she fits in, what people think of her. And not to talk about all that baggage of having a demon like Hitler as a grandfather!
The song made me want to channel my fearless teen characters more in my own life. I want to be fearless, to move forward with strength and conviction. Especially when it comes to working toward fulfilling my dreams and in raising my kids. Like my writing mantra I told you about, I don’t want to be limited by my own insecurities. I want to be FEARLESS. (Or at least in control of that fear.)
1. What age do you wish you could channel?
2. Do you think teens have that fearless or invincible mentality? Do you think they’re physically fearless, but emotionally loaded with insecurities?
BTW, this is the version I like best of Taylor Swift’s song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptSjNWnzpjg